Not physically. I get enough sleep. My muscles get stronger every day. No. I’m tired in a different way altogether.
I’m tired of working so hard to find out if people are speaking the truth or not.
Years ago, I took most everything at face value. Honesty was a value I was raised with and came to expect from others. It was especially a value I expected from people in positions of power and influence.
Unfortunately, those days are long gone.
These days, I now know I can’t really trust anybody that I don’t know personally.
I can’t trust any news outlet. I don’t believe that any of them are fair or balanced. They say what their audience wants them to say, otherwise they would lose their audience. They may believe what they are saying is the truth, but anymore, even a casual fact-check will call their reporting into question.
(I realize that fact-checking sites and watch-dog blogs are equally subject to bias and need to be carefully researched and cross-checked for truth. And I have developed the habit of doing this. Thus…the reason I am tired.)
I cannot…no, will not trust a politician. Things have changed. I cannot consistently believe the words that come out of their mouths. Maybe they truly believe what they are saying. Maybe not. Either way, they are saying what they feel they need to say to get…or stay…elected. They say what their constituency wants to hear. Whether it is 100% accurate (or a complete fabrication) is completely irrelevant.
There was a time when coaches, ministers, teachers, police officers, military brass, counselors, social service officials and others, could be trusted to tell the truth, simply because of the honesty and integrity associated with their position. Well, that’s a piece of distant history.
And let’s not even go down the road of the collective wisdom that is flippantly (and carelessly) traded on the world wide interweb.
But this isn’t all bad.
There was a time I was leading a high school Bible study and for the whole time I was teaching, I told lies and half-truths. I made everything sound really spiritual. I taught with deep conviction. I made sure my facial expressions and body language were sincere and convincing.
After 20 or 30 minutes of teaching (complete with questions and answers), I came clean. And then proceeded to teach them the truth I really wanted them to grasp. Don’t believe something just because someone in an influential position says it. God gave us brains and we are to use them. Think. Ask questions. Don’t trust a religious “expert”, just because they have a title or a following. Study. Research. Use the gifts God has given you. Diligently seek the truth. Above all, take responsibility for your own spiritual journey.
Honestly, I think we may now be living in an era where truth and honesty in the social setting is gone. The ends justifying the means is now the standard we have come to accept in almost all areas of public life. Yeah. I believe the bar is that low.
But it doesn’t have to be that way for the seeker of God’s truth.